Happy Birthday to me!

First off: thank you to everyone who came to the cinco de mayo/Sunny fete on Friday.  It was a blast. 

My birthday is a time of reflection for me.  This year i thought to myself, "Where did my 20's go?  I'm starting to feel old.  I see the time I've wasted more and more each day. And who in the hell is Deathcab for Cutie?"

• What did I do the past year?
• What do I want to do moving forward?
• What hurdles are in my way?
• What do I really need to buckle down and do in order to get there?
• What do I miss from my life that needs to come back? How did I get distracted enough to cut it out of my life when it brings me happiness?

Without going into too much detail, this has been the most stressful year of my life.  Those of you who know me well, know that I've struggled, that I've had a very difficult time, that I'm pulling out of it and am a much happier, increasingly well-adjusted, and aware human being - even during the times when I cry on your shoulders, I realize I'm in a much better place. You've seen me happy and even ecstatic and you've seen me in very low places. But you've seen me and that's what counts.

Thank you for being there for me.  It means the world to me.

What I want to do for the year.

• I want to spend a lot of time with Sebastian, challenge him to grow and develop into the wonderful person I see in him.
• I want to bring my family and friends closer to me.
• I need to bring my deep appreciation for art, music, books and dance back into my life..
• I want to become a better dancer and get to a higher level where I feel confident in my skills and presentation.
• I need to develop my "see the forest, don't focus on the trees" mentality.  It's all but absent right now.
• I need to beef up my self-confidence in all areas of my life.
• I need to learn and to grow!  I don't want to be stagnant any longer.

I've missed a lot of these things in my life and they must return.

Comments

[Sandy]

Happy Belated Birthday wishes to you! Hope you had a great day! To a better more fulfilling year ahead!

[Mikel]

Sweets.. I have every confidence that you will accomplish all on your list and more.. if I can help and support you in anyway.. please let me know..

I admire your strength..

xx Mikel